The Year of My Life that was Stolen

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May 19, 2015 | 17 Comments

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  1. What I would like to know is this woman was on a cocktail of drugs , had a year of hell and is ok now, I and many others were only ever on one drug and are still not back to normal after 8, 9 , 10 years after stopping their drug.

    • Ruth and whoever else:

      I am convinced that nothing helps more than running and other HARD exercise to get past withdrawal/addiction. Katinka is shown here running a half marathon–I have little doubt that is what helped “fix her brain” so quickly.

      I was very wrongly put on a high dose of Ativan (long story), quit cold turkey, had a tough withdrawal. Nothing helped more than going for a long, hard, sweaty run–after each run, I felt “normal”, even immediately after quitting. Of course I couldn’t run night & day, but I really think it helped me to recover more quickly.

  2. Katinka you are so lucky to have not ended up arrested or worse gone on to kill yourself like so many others. It’s unbelievable you were taken off Escitalopram went back to normal to then be told you need another of the same type of antidepressant and anti psychotic. That bit really makes me angry because I have seen that happen to other people to, I just don’t get their logic. It only proves they don’t know their drugs and your nothing more than a genie pig to them.

    They also say its “trial and era” but they don’t say that in the courtroom, why don’t they tell the judge that or the coroner when its all gone wrong. This whole subject just gets me so bloody angry.

    I had the awakening you described when coming off Citalopram there is nothing like it, it really is like a re birth as you describe.

    I’m really glad to hear you are well again you had a very lucky escape.

  3. The worst part is trying pick your life up again after the damage. No one wants to employ you. Where have you been these last few years? Where the hell do you start without putting them off. Then its the CRB check thats a definite fail without the explanation reg: your mental health problem and drug intoxication.

    WHERE ARE YOU BLOODY PSYCHIATRISTS NOW!!! NICE WORK WELL DONE!!

  4. What’s in a name? Join a debate with me & @dineshbhugra on the pros & cons of diagnosis, positive thinking, more: https://t.co/kZhPkv2lWC

    I think I speak for most of us when we wish you happy debating at IAI.

    I think I speak for most of us that we would have preferred positive thinking advice from any psychiatrist anywhere in the world rather than ‘take this drug’ and you will be happy……

    It is nonsense, and most us now know that.

    Now, we have to train psychiatrists ourselves and open clinics for gps and psychiatrists who have no where to go when so many have done so much harm.
    All those patients in the dock, when it should have been the doctors in the dock.

    Behind every violent act/suicide is a doctor of some sort…sitting pretty like the horse with no name.

    I look forward to seeing another action packed performance from yourself, as a Big Name, and, the Depression Game has brought Shame, Guilt and Suicide.

    When anyone comes close to me, now, saying I am depressed, I say get over yourself…it’s just a name.
    Go and buy yourself a mars bar and stop being so self indulgent.

    Try being a little child living on the streets in India or war torn Iraq – that is bewildered…and the last thing these little children need is some poxy pill…………….developing an industry out of DeeeeeeeeePreshun is the most criminal and tantalising and dependently crucifying financial enterprise existing today……we know we sucked up and look how badly that went.

    Those children in war zones will grow to be adults, if they are lucky, and, they will have developed a backbone so strong having seen so much blood that I pray that drug companies just leave them alone, just like we should have been left alone and not pushed and shoved and nudged by people who mostly have no idea what they are talking about.

    One other thing…all the hundreds and hundreds of studies, on us, and the ensuing raised voices and squabbles, which does nothing in our favour…as, Ove, said, I swallowed the pill and I know how it affected me – so sometimes I think we feel gravely overlooked………

    And, over on !BOM they are spending so much time squabbling about the comments they have completely lost the plot…………..! to their international audience……chuckle
    1BOM is awesome.

    And, as Altostrata famously said, if you are in front of a particularly nasty doctor, respond as if you are training a very large dog…..Snoopy chuckles

    And, my very old Labrador had a violent attack on my caravan seating and ripped it apart one night..as per Elizabeth Hart….he had got new medication for Discospondylitis…if Paroxetine had not occurred to me I might not have thrown out the medication along with the vet…….
    He is back to his licky, slobbering self…Snoopy Snoopy Chuckles

    Happy Sunday………fab new site on DH…

    I have to relocate – damaging Mental Health in Scotland – Scots Nats – it has not stopped raining in 300 years – when the world is your choice, where do you go?

    Without baggage…the ceremonial burning of ones medical records?

    It is all so brutal

  5. Glad to hear you reverted back to normal. Are you aware that if you ever break and decide to go back on anti depressants your feelings might never return?

    Stick to that decision like your life depends on it. Because it does.

  6. Glad to hear you are back to normal , or as close to normal as you can be. I am returning from my own horror trip thru the western medicine blender. Basically I was ill, injured and in pain so I went to my doctor. They proceeded to drug me out of my mind. Over the next five years I was on a cocktail of drugs, a changing mix that kept me off balance constantly. I was at that time unaware of the drug companies influence of medical practice and I trusted that my doctors knew all about the drugs they were giving me. Big, big mistake! They knew very little about the drugs and the ” side effects”. They, like me, believed what we are told about side effects – that they are “mild and rare”. Nothing could be further from the truth. My drug list started with Wellbutrin, Trazodone and Flexoril. When Lyrica and Cymbalta were added the real trouble began. In all, at the end of five years my list of drugs included, among other things, FIVE major drug interaction WARNINGS for serotonin syndrome. FIVE ! And not one doctor saw that as a problem. When I went back to my PCP after coming off most of them I took a RxISK report for Lyrica to him and asked him to read and sign it if he agreed that my side effect symptoms could be from Lyrica. My RxISK score was 8. He read it and said he had never heard of any of this about Lyrica. He knew nothing about mood or behavior side effects from that drug. He would not sign the report, out of fear of being sued I guess.
    What Dr Healy, Breggin and Robert Whitaker say about drug companies running the information show and hiding the truth about their chemicals appears to be very true. Very few doctors are aware of the risks involved in the drugs they so willingly hand out. And my shrink was the worst offender. He obviously did not have any clue that all of my symptoms were drug induced. He followed the DSM to the letter and I was to the point of suicide. I know that to be true since the symptoms have miraculously disappeared since I stopped taking the drugs.
    Isn’t that amazing. I didn’t need any of the drugs at all. I just wish I could get my money back and compensation for everything else I lost due to the incompetence of all my doctors. But that is apparently just a wish, a wish never to be granted.
    Never again will I trust a doctor until he/she earns my trust. In fact, I’m searching for a naturopath or wholistic doctor for the future and trusting my innate instincts.

    Rory

  7. I am so envious of this lady and happy that she recovered. After i cold turkey’d prozac after 16 years i have been very very ill. I never had any of these symptoms prior to antidepressants. In over a year i have seen many doctors all but one said this was a my original mental illness returning, they said this without looking at my records or asking any questions at all about my original illness. I recently saw a pychiatrist who said i was super sensitive to pychiatric medication and that i should never take one again. whilst this was good to hear he has no solution to this illness and said maybe i will recover maybe i wont.

    You have no real voice when you have had any history of depression, everything you say is not to be belived. it is a crime what these medications do to people

  8. *Servicing* the body, she said…….

    http://www.madinamerica.com/psychiatric-drug-withdrawal/#/home/

    As MIA, Rxisk and several *experts* discuss pill withdrawal, there is much information available to *everyone* and I would recommend, nay, insist that it is all read, digested and consumed and then a lot more might become apparent as to why we became bottom of the barrel……..and, why, none of this is penetrating the *head* of *your doctor*?

    Plus = try getting hold of a *named* person to complain to in the gargantuan – the various NHS outfits across the country – and you will find it impossible.
    Fill in a complaints form is required and then send your complaint to an office of juniors to be directed to whoever, maybe…….or it might just conveniently *get lost*…………

    Any discussion in the real world of the patient will not be *entertained* as those of us who have tried are *side stepped* for the greater good of the benefits to society as a *whole*

    One suicide is regretful, two unfortunate, thousands?
    Never mind, eh.

  9. To follow up with Rory I agree that if you take the Risk form to a Dr. or you’r own Dr. They will have dart’s coming out of their eyes. They will not read it, perhaps even handle it. I Have never taken a risk form to my Dr. because I know already how their going to react. The same old, “I graduated from Med School Not You. How dare you question Me. Find you’r self another MD.” I can’t afford my Dr. being angry or sore with me. I’ve finally been put on the right meds after many years of suffering from depression. Even though these forms are informative and the purpose of the feedback of side effects isn’t made to upset anyone but just provide perhaps a bit more insight into a drug’s possible side effect profile. As Dr. Healy said in one of his lectures “The complaint or comment would be thrown into a box, put into a shelf and disregarded as being an anecdote.” If it’s not a side effect listed in the literature or PDR then it couldn’t have happened. Then we Patients look like idiots to the Dr. treating us because they think You think that perhaps you know something that has escaped their learning or training. If it’s A Dr. that you could care a less if they get rid of you as a patient then go for it. Some of us though have found the holy grail. A Dr. that finally put us on the right med mix and can’t risk the Dr. becoming angry with us. Just curious…I’d like to know how many people have given the Risk Side effect sheet to their Dr. and had a positive response as opposed to hatred and contempt.

  10. Thank you for this story. I don’t feel alone and isolated or that it is my fault. This story also makes me feel hopeful. Thank you for sharing a story with similarities to my own. Thank you

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